20120830

Shed the tears, pick up the sword and fight.

It's almost a year since I quit my first job. Subsequently, I continue study full time ACCA. Somehow, my result does not turn out to be good and I don't feel like wasting my time any more. In case I fail it again, I will have the savings to compensate me at least and I won't feel like losing everything again. So, I started my miserable job searching and interviews journey again.

3 emails were sent three days ago and so far only one replied and ask me for an interview. I prepared my documents, updated my resume and fill up the employment form right before the interview day. Today, I went for the interview and this post will be mainly about the interview. Here it goes.

I think is my problem to underestimate this public listed company, I do not take it seriously. Once I step into the office, I get shocked when I saw a lots of angmohs and white collars having meeting in the meeting room. Then, the officer pass me an assessment test to evaluate my Maths, IQ and behavioural response. This is something I do not expected and those questions are quite challenging. While I was cracking my head to answer the questions, the officer came to collect the script after 40mins. I haven't finish answering, I said. Well, never mind, you can go for the interviews now and complete the questions later because the interview panels are waiting. WHAT! I thought you are the one who will be interview me later, I muttering to myself.
He brought me to the next building and then ask me to take off my heels and stand on the weighing machine, they measure my height after that. Excuse me! I'm coming for an accountant or finance officer interview, not for a model search!!    

After they got my BMI, they said I'm ready to go for interview now. A young lady interviewed me and ask me to introduce myself first. Then, she asked me some typical interview questions like what's your strength and weakness, family background, interest, preferred working conditions.. I answered it accordingly with my not-so-fluent english. After that, I asked for my basic salary and allowances entitlement which I think it is every one's main concern in the interview. Surprisingly, they offered me more than I expected. It just that my priority is to work under finance that will be soon relocated to work at Empire, Subang. Another option is to work as account executive in Klang which was like super near to my house. That means if I select to work as accountant here which against my interest, I could have earned my basic salary and my fixed travelling allowance every month plus not getting myself caught in the traffic jam. 

After the young lady's interview, the boss came in. He answered by queries patiently and explain to me that the company is actually concerned with their employees' health. That's why they will measure your BMI three month once and their in-house nutritionist will advise you to exercise or take healthy foods in case you are overweight or obese. Ohhhhhh, no wonder laa... You will be also giving a toothbrush and toothpaste once you joined the company and you are required to brush your teeth every 3 hours, he adds on. Spot checks will be conducted in order to check whether you brush your teeth or not??? I showed him with my unbelievable expression when he told me about this. The company is also encouraging their staffs to join sports and activities, for example, you are welcome to join the badminton game every Wednesday and the company subsidies you 50% if you joined Fitness First. It is so amazing on how they care about their employees besides the stringent rules.   

Then, Mr Boss said he is done by asking me questions and now is my turn to ask him. What? my mind was totally blank at the moment. Hmm, have you taken your lunch? wtf, I felt like slapping myself for asking this stupid question. I asked him how long he joined the company and can he strike a balance between his family and working subsequently. 

Overall, I think my performance is acceptable but not outstanding. I should have take it more seriously. Well, it passed, and nothing I can do for now besides waiting for their answer. Anyway, the company culture really drop my jaw. I do wish to join the big family, so god bless me. *fingers & toes crossed* Teehee. =)

20120822

邦咯岛,大爱!


亲爱的邦咯岛,我又来了!
这次是跟小学的姐妹团们去旅游,
虽然临出发前发生了一些小插曲,但绝不会影响我的心情。
那一天,突然发现我的穿着跟最近很红的‘趴车姐’
竟然有异曲同工之妙,哈。


从Marina Island码头出发到邦咯岛只需10分钟。


邦咯岛的古城-AFamosa,很像呐!
风好大,我一直在上演玛丽莲梦露的经典戏码。


丢了行李在房,就迫不及待奔向大海。

六个人,出海只需八十块。

介绍完海上奇形怪状的石头,
就把我们扔到一个荒岛上游泳。


天气晴朗,海水清澈。


海中发现一只四脚朝天的大海龟,哈哈。


然后,他从海中捞起两坨屎,
好啦,另加两撮海草。

晚上,我们到海边散步,
意外发现蓝眼泪,让我们惊喜连连。


第二天早上又是一阵嬉闹。
我们俩很写意的在海中划船。



谁知道这两组人马,竟然想夹攻我们。
一个大拐弯,我们可怜的小船一直摇晃,
全身被海水溅湿。
你问我好不好玩?
那感觉就好像,你在路边走着走着,
突然奔驶而过的汽车把污水溅到你身上
那样, 好 - 玩。



这是我们第一次旅行之处,
相知相惜一年后又回到此处,
那海边、沙滩、秋千都没变,
他依旧在我身边,牵着我、背我、疼我。
谢谢你,让我爱上大海。


20120810

心碎了一地

今天是八月十号,成绩放榜后的第二天。
我的心还是纠结在一块,我不明白为什么,全部杠龟这事实好残忍。
那一刻,眼泪不听使唤,明知道这样也无法改变什么。
我奋斗了一年,这么久以来的努力在这一天都付诸流水.

第一个想到的是他,尽管分开了,我还是很犯贱的发了通信息给他。
‘My heart was falling into pieces now and I don’t know who can I rely on.'
在我频临绝望的时候,他说,‘I'm yours tonight.’
(他是打算今晚献身给我是吗?哈哈。)

就这样,我们打破了这几天的沉默,但我的心里还是很愧疚。
与其继续与我斗气,他选择把肩膀借给我,他说他知道我一个人承受不了。
你知道那有多感动吗?表面上对你不揪不睬,
私底下却一直向我家人打探我的近况,默默守候。

电话不断响起,不用接我也猜到是来问成绩的,我输得很难看,
爱面子的我,不知如何启齿。
妈妈敲了门进房,安慰哭倒在床上的我,给我打了一只强心针。
终究我觉得,最对不起的是她。
他们俩像约好一样,都以LCW当例子来安慰我,哈哈,
LCW已逐渐变成最佳安慰人的台词。

他们俩是我这一生最重要的人,多亏他们,
出乎预料的,尽管这一次跌得很伤,
我却以最快的速度再次站起来。
但难免,心中那伤口一碰触还是会隐隐作痛。

谢谢你们,我输了给它,却赢回了亲情与爱情,
算起来,有赚啦!!

永不言败,有一天,我会成功的,你等着瞧。






20120806

我會好好過

去年你毫無預警的闖入我的世界,今天我們卻協議暫時分開。
‘暫時分開’這詞有可能是幾天、幾個星期、幾年或永遠。
那一夜,我哭濕了半個枕頭,我以為還有機會挽回,
但原來不是的,對你的傷害已經不能再補救。
我的脾氣、我的任性,已經到了不可理喻的境界。

曾經,我們很愛彼此,曾經,我也以為,我們可以天長地久,
但很遺憾我敗給了我的情緒,大頭症讓自己也受不了,
就連簡單的小事如系安全帶也有辦法挑起我們的戰火,
到後來,我把他對我的好都變成理所當然,一次又一次的承諾改變從沒實現過。
終究一直以來,我最愛的最在乎的還是我自己。
他很好,好得無可挑剔,錯在於我,我不懂得珍惜,不懂的如何去愛。

把麵子書給關了,
因為每天打開他的專業-了解朋友的動向-我們的部落格,
已經成了我腦袋裡設定好的方程式。
現在的我,不敢面對手機、不敢開車、
不敢打開面子書、不敢打開皮包,
因為,我刷牙時候想起他、看見皮包裡的合照想他、系安全帶的時候也想起他。

昨天小侄女的燒烤會,親戚們都問起他,我支吾以對。
媽媽說,剩那麼多食物,等他來,再一起吃。
我想告訴媽媽,他不會來了,以後也不會,卻怎麼也開不了口。

分手第二天晚上,很犯賤的撥了通電話給他,
承諾自己,只要聽到他的聲音,我就掛斷。
奈何事與願違,他沒接上,這樣也好,扼殺我最後的希望。

相愛是一輩子的事,不適合就是不適合,
與其繼續藕斷絲連,倒不如現在就來個緊急煞車,對你我都好。
像我這種烂人沒資格去愛,更不配享受你給的一切。
我不會再挽留,這樣就不會再有傷害,因為失戀它很痛,痛一次就夠了。

我們都要好好過,祝我們幸福。